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so i had a prooooperly weird dream last night that i'm gonna share with you all.
firstly i was in my room so i could see the alleyway, and craig was there and she just stepped over the wall - obv she had stupidly huge bitch legs to step casually over a like seven feet wall - and started pacing around my garden making a note of all the things she could see that she was gonna pointlessly teach us the words for in spanish. she was wearing stupid clothes tho so it's okay. she had like three followers as well, and rita from coronation street was in my room with my brother as we were bitching about how pointless the vocab was, and she opened the window to hear what she was saying so one of the craig-minions came floating up to the first floor and telling us to vote for her cause she was a labour counciller.. and rita was like '*slowly shakes head pityingly* .. no' so the woman opened it again and started telling us the benefits of labour and such. then it was snowing and i was outside my house with helen bickley and oz and.. someone else and, as i went back inside to say i'm off to town to frolick in snow, i got distracted by chinese food and cds and never went. and that's it.

soo. yeah after that bombshell i've done nothing all day but I WILL, i'm gonna go have a shower and make a mixtape as i've just perfected the list of songs. it isn't a summer one yet though, it can be a pre-exams mixtape of joy. and i am going to do my sociology coursework tonight as i really have nothing better to do anyway, plus i obv have to.. but yeah, fun. i've decided that giving up drinking this past month, which is aaaalmost is now, SO hasn't made me feel better tho i spose the days of hangovers are a benefit. whatever ¬_¬ roll on thursday and the DRINKING WEEKEND OF JOY.
i like i like when we're n-nice nice to each other
i like i like when we surely like one another
fun lyrics huh :P but good song so woo.
anyways i'll go yes yes. laters.

'hey u look so sweet and i wanna know more about u but i'm afraid that u'll be rtacist with me as the others cuz i'm algerian any way take care'. what a greeting ^_^.
anyways hiiii. tonight's been spent in front of the tv, i plan on working tomorrow basically and costume making on sunday. it's gonna be fine. i got my exam timetable today like with the rooms and the clashes on it, it's all gotten real again :P i really could do with passing these exams. hopefully i'll revise before the isolation period between all my exam clashes (three out of the four days ¬_¬). i got all happy about london again today on like three different occasions - one of them was on the news when they did like a thing about the london/rest of the country divide. then it told me london has more billionaires than any other city second to new york but 52% of children live below the poverty line. FIFTY TWO PERCENT. there was me thinking we were a developed country. anyway it SLIGHTLY bothered me. now i feel bad saying i really wanna go there.
still loving britney, officially <3.
so. yeah i've got nothing. nothing new is happening really, i'm a bit stuck in exam limbo with revision all around me that i've still failed to start. i really couldn't have picked a WORSE time to do this, why couldn't i lapse at the start of y12 and get it back before exams and all through y13? damn! i wrote a spanish essay in like twenty minutes today and felt some slight improvement has been made in my general skillage since like y11 but no thanks to craig. the exam might be okay. french on thursday :(:(:(. mah.
i'm gonna tidy. i'm obviously not going to work at this time of night but i'm obviously not going to sleep either so yay efficiency.
i can't think of anything else to write about, i'm hardly at my best atm anyway so forming coherent sentences is verging on physically painful. i was so tired today it was sickening, i really need to sort myself out. i've also eaten enough for like a whole town for a week. but whatcha gonna do, really?
anyways. i'll blog tomorrow about the incredible efficiency of my day. laters!

lol my hips look huge in this photo. ah well, summer. went for running round my garden earlier CAUSE IT WAS SUMMERY <3.
ah so i'm dancing around to britney at 2am, always a great move right before exams. i really need to sort my sleeping patterns out, reeeeally. this ain't no way to be.. to quote some song i can't remember right now. ahh.
so i haven't blogged for a week, that's like a long time for me, the blog addict. what's come over me? ah who knows, maybe it's dawned on me that i never have anything to say at all except OMG EXAMS and OMG SCHOOL and OMG I SHOULD SLEEP and OMG I DID NOTHING TODAY HERE ARE SOME LYRICS I LIKE. not that that's a reason not to blog, obv. ah who knows/cares.
so today wasn't thaaaat productive, JOY for no school though JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY. got up at like half 11 and got to the library at half 2 lol, three lost hours somewhere along the way. then an hour for curly fries and costume planning.. then 3 hours or so of work. so meh. i didn't do a thing to the sociology coursework either just spent a while stressing over it and then gave up and revised. i really could do without failing these exams. my extended family won't give me hell if i get straight a's, but anything below that it's a bit iffy. ah hopefully my mum would be nice enough anyway :P i had a few good conversations with her today, it's kinda odd. it made me realise i really need to change some of my attitudes cause i'm just like she was at this age only a bit more used to the modern world, as i wasn't raised in the middle of catholic nowhere. but we have the same attitudes to people, i need to sort it out cause she kinda did some stuff which could have ended really quite badly in the past and they seemed JUST like the kind of decisions i would have made without thinking. tbh some i already did make. but it's fine, i'll learn ^_^.
aaanyway.
don't go knocking on my door
gotta stay away for sure
you say you miss me like crazy
but i ain't buying that
SISTERHOOD. ah i love britney, i really do. i've been listening to elle's mixtape loads too, it's summery even if it wasn't meant to be :D.
so tomorrow, friday, yay. it felt like the summer holidays today, it's so depressing that it ISN'T. but george's party costume making on sunday, and then next weekend is a yay so YAY. we'll get through. omg lol french speaking on thursday, THERE'S something i forgot. i'll learn the presentation tho obv.. if i get it back tomorrow.. yeah it'll be fine ^_^
there's no one online 'cept the french people who never switch their computers off. how odd, i really should be asleep. i'm so stuuuuupid.
so i feel i should say something profound. what conclusions have i reached in the last week..?
yeah i got nothing. this was pointless but at least i blog once a week. night!

so it's 3am. i don't know what to do, it's a funny time and i don't know to sleep or not, if that'll improve things or just really not. i spose i should, i'm meant to be going to robyn's tomorrow for games and fun, i don't know if i can or will just want to sleep, anti-social as that sounds/blatantly is.
the sociology coursework is impossible, i've done that thing i always do where i assume i'll be able to do it lesson two in that free i never work in. but i actually might tomorrow as i really need to get this work marked. i'd quite like to pass. i've had another tiny wave of motivation following the speaking exam as it's like first one done and it wasn't terrible, so yay.
okay i might stay 'til four and just try to get more written though i have no idea what about.
i haven't read anything in ages, i'll try and read iron in the soul over the weekend - yay existentialism. it makes me feel arty and intellectual.
i need to stop eating, oh my GOD at how much i ate today :| i need to sort it out, i can't just eat everytime i get stressed over exams cause i literally will be obese by the end of june. so maaahhh i start tomorrow, yes yes.
oh it is SO cold :( my bed's calling me, i love sleeping so much lol. ahhhh dear. i hope it's summery tomorrow like it was today only warmer, that'd motivate me to go to school and stuff. *hopes*.
so yeah, not a lot going on in dani-world 'cept panicked rushed work. i've decided being efficient with my time feels far better than wasting it all then stressing so this weekend is going to be efficient.. also i don't have time not to be so lol. i need to stop talking about work though, i feel so dominated by school and it sucks cause surely there are other things to say. surely.
let us die young or let us live forever - ah the youth group. i love this song at times like this, it's such a good 3am song ^_^

let's dance in style, let's dance for a while
heaven can wait, we're only watching the skies
hoping for the best but expecting the worst
are you gonna drop the bomb or not?
let us die young or let us live forever
don't have the power but we never say never
sitting in the sandpit, life is a short trip
music's for the sad man
can you imagine when this race is run,
turn our faces into the sun?
praising our leaders, getting in tune,
music's played by the mad man
forever young, i wanna be forever young
do you really want to live forever?
forever forever
some are like water, some are like the heat
some are the melodies, some are the beat
sooner or later they'll all be gone
why don't they stay young?
it's hard to get on without a cause
i don't want to perish like a fading voice
youth is like diamonds in the sun and diamonds are forever
so many adventures couldn't happened today
so many songs that we forgot to play
so many dreams swinging out in the blue
left to come true

ahanyway. yeah i need to go. nothing to say and my brain isn't working anyway. sooooon.

okay i need to make a plan for tomorrow to get me through it. ignore the level of detail, this is my headspace:
school
meet examiner (bloody hope he's nice with a fun name like SARRIEGI)
french english panic relearning of presentation
i have to go talk to weird spanish man at quarter to twelve :( i realise it'll probably be extremely helpful making me think in spanish and such but he is WEIRD all the same
spanish exam omg panicpanicpanic
spanish lesson ¬_¬
curly fries!
library
watch 13 going on 30, i need to get my sanity back :P
coursework all night

NICE. see it's all planned out and that makes me feel quiiiite a lot calmer. i'm about sure of maybe.. 80% of my presentation.. i figure it'll be fine. if i check about unemployment in spain then i figure it'll be okay, i know most of the other topics.
OH all i talk about on here is school but what else do i have going on?
oh i'm worried.
worried worried worried.
this is 15% of my a level :( i basically need a c, which is a grade below what i'd get if i haven't improved since y12 which i hope to god i have. so it might be okay i spose but it wouldn't be normal not to be panicked. i want london :( everytime i see it on tv i'm like LONDONLONDONLONDON (the apprentice is particularly bad to watch when i get like that :P) so i hope i actually get in :( aaanyway.
sociology coursework's a lol. it'll be okay though.
nothing else to tell as i didn't leave the house today. i'll blog properly tomorrow ^_^