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and i'll become what you became to me.
so here's my train of thought. black balloon came on and i don't really listen to goo goo dolls that much anymore so it was kind of fun, and i didn't skip through it and i remembered what an epic song it is. then i started thinking about how it was sort of this time two years ago that we went to see them - i touched him! - so then i started thinking about that summer cause it feels so summery today, and y11 summer was the best of them all. and then i got like a wave of a feeling that is a remember-y11-summer feeling as i was looking out an open window into greenness and blue sky and singing along, and i saw that it was good.
so my favourite kind of memories are feelings. i can only think of like three that i get, and one of them i don't like but i like it at the same time, cause it's kind of a little bit past nostalgia into the sadness bit, but it's still nice.
so all of this came to mind in a big rush of something - i don't like how there are some things we haven't yet created a word for in english - and i thought i'd tell you all about it.
last night idlewild came on too, and i had a mini idlewild oh i love you fest and that was also good.
i'm in such a good mood today, i can't help but be incoherent. sorry!
on a night that could never surprise me
don't tell me you're afraid of the past
it's only the future that didn't last
you're kidding yourself
you're kidding yourself
you're going nowhere and you're going there fast
life is good. i'm currently in one of those phases where even the rubbish bits are lovely, it's just all lovely. lovely is such a lovely lovely word as well.
i wanna go to the paaaark, no one seems remotely up for it though. despite spending half the day in the library we did spend an hour and a half or so outside, only 34 to go til i get a tan!
by the harbour, i harbour the strangest memories
older than i could ever be
stranded in nostalgia, so tonight i'll try harder
but it's hard to fix this spotlight on me
in a cast that's taking places, i'm unsure of where i want to be
idlewild are amazing. words are all seeming rather nice to me at the moment as well, reading mirror by sylvia plath was just like oh yes, literature <3.
anyways i'll leave it there i think. today was a good day.

so today was good. i stayed up til five doing sociology so i had a crazy wave of energy around half ten this morning and was just hyper for like an hour, it was ace :P it was glorious and sunny and i wore a dress, crazy. i made my realisations so i feel settled, i can see ahead now?! THAT'S NEW.
life is peachy my friends, PEACHY.
if i do the rest of the coursework tonight then i can sleep, and then i'm going to the backstreet boys kinda around that time. sweeeeeet.
anyways i might go out and walk, toooooo sunny.
happy happy.

so this extended weekend was both ace and rubbish; friday & saturday being ace and yesterday & today being rubbish. ah well. i haven't done barely anything, i need to do my french bibliography before tomorrow but i'm not doing anything other than that 'til my frees tomorrow so whatever.
i'm starting to ponder about what rachel's gonna do to me tomorrow, she might try and kill me. ah well. two weeks two days til we break up?! how terrifying, i'm so not ready for it. though summer will be good. yeah.
i'm generally not in a good mood today and neither was i yesterday. i've had a million cups of tea and much as i love it, it does kinda show that 'a cup of tea solves everything' is a phrase i should NEVER HAVE TRUSTED. in fairness why would one thing ever be able to solve everything, some things aren't even solveable. whatever. i'm such a fooooooool. i might make a big list of all the stuff that i'd like to tell people but can't cause i'm too afraid of their reactions, and then do something with it. i dunno. it keeps happening, eugh. ANYWAY enough of that, enough cryptic blogging.
mcfly are a yay. they make me happy ^_^ as do BACKSTREET BOYS, who i get to see the day after the day after tomorrow, WIN <3. and maybe a park day on friday if i decide to go, and james/becky's party the following saturday.. i might get through it yet.
yeah i'm bored of blogging, i'll prolly take this down soon. i'm restless, i feel funny.

is that not the best picture of squidge like ever?! <3.
so hii. seems it's been a while since the last blog so i shall update you on the fabulous goings on of my life as i usually do ^_^. the weather's so gay and boring today i shall brighten my own day if no one else's.
soo. since i last blogged.. we've had george's party and we went out last night for lindz's birthday, speaking exam and.. that might be it.
so george's was wonderful. turned up to a tipsy jess in a pirate outfit and the hulk outside george's house, it amused me :P, shall i try and remember the joyous costumes?! the hulk, pirate, gandalf (lol i had idea who it was behind the beard for like 10 minutes), a terrorist (¬_¬ stanners), edward scissorhands (gimp), scooby doo, stormtrooper, pete doherty, pippi longstocking, a cat, an angel, dorothy wizard of oz girl, flapper, reverend green (that's a whole other story), cowgirl, octopus, butterfly, surgeon, mad scientist.. is that it?! WE'RE COOL. but yeah it was fun, drunken trampolining until dunham came and nearly killed me on it, me and drew running off in search of a donkey ("omg is that a person or a donkey?!"), teeth! ("TOOTHY VAG"). i was sick but only cause dunham woke me up ¬_¬ though it seems it didn't look like i was breathing and i was sprawled in such a way that i could be dead :P. aaanyway. um.. yeah everything was fun basically, even the tip trip and the shovelling of sicky gravel lol ahh me and lindz are cool recycling all the bottles, planet savers ^_^.
last night was alright, lindz seemed to have a crazy good time being that drunk and i've never had such fun buying chinese food before. ooh and absinthe, i had that for the first time. i was far too sober, it burns :(. but joy!
so i'm feeling like i can work today, though i slept til like 2 and am now just on facebook.. but it's fine. i might go have a shower then tidy everything up then make a plan, i figure it can be done.
BACKSTREET BOYS IN FOUR DAYS. OMG I LOVE THEM SO.
ah i can't be bothered to write anymore. normally these blogs are far more rambly.. ah well ^_^. i'll blog later maybe. laters!

this is what i'm doing atm, it's wonderful.
my night has been.. wasted primarily. i was in a bad mood for some of it so that passes quickly, made a backstreet boys mixtape, which is beautiful btw, so that was a bit more.. revised all the rules of ring of fire - BEST DRINKING GAME EVER .. or at least top 5 - and now am on that site, not a tiny piece of work done but ah, what was i expecting?
i need to do my french coursework by tomorrow which should be okay, i might try and sleep by half 2 which is theoretically possible after i finish this blog, only a little bit to do.. i'll end up doing it tomorrow anyway cause it changes formats and stuff when i email (note how i don't understand computers) so mah.
lol at what i've done with the 3 trillion. i've ended america's dependance on foreign oil, switched to solar and replaced all plastic bags, achieved universal literacy, ended 3rd world debt and ended hunger & poverty related diseases plus created sustainable agriculture worldwide and housed the homeless. this is a good site lol it really makes you hate george bush. effective campaigning.
so. what can i ramble about? i'm in an extremely bitchy-in-a-laidback way kinda mood atm, i have a lot of annoyances but a lot are in a way i can laugh about, so it isn't a horrendous way to be. fritha finding as many slutty costumes for james' party is one, i think elle and i should go as jabba the hut or something combined and hideous/hilarious just .. for contrast and comedy.
it seems i'm going as miss scarlett to george's party, i tried elle's fabulous dress and it basically does fit me, might need a bit of .. 'securing', lol, but it'll be fine.
according to wikipedia i've gotta be femme fatale, young, cunning, stupid, childish, own a brothel in chicago, have a lecherous interest in old perverted men and have colonel mustard (lol, rachel hopefully will go for this idea after all) as my worthless henchman. FUNNY.
but yeah i'm insanely excited about this party, i'd loove to know everyone who's going though as it's a bit up in the air with some people but JOY, it's gonna be so so good. it's now 2, dunno how likely sleep by half past is.
french exam on thursday, lol at how hard i'm gonna fail it with a half-written not-at-all-learned exposé and no sleep, no knowledge of france it seems. ahhhh well, she woman was fine last year she seemed impressed with a 'bonjour' so gleeeeee.
what else is going on in my fascinating life?
yeah not a lot.
backstreet boys in eleven days. ELEVEN DAYS. i think lol. yay!!
oh i'm so awake.
i just want you to knooow
that i've been fighting to let you go
some days i make it through
and then there's nights that never end
i wish that i could belieeeve
that there's a day you'll come back to me
but still i have to say
i would do it all again
just want you to know
would you do it all again?! maybe i'm getting philosophical-theoretical (i sound like polonius dramatical amateur romantical dramatical lol hamlet) cause it's late but i'm assuming this song's about some horrific heartbreaking break-up, why would you do it again? like ACTUALLY. ah i don't know, i'm not the relationship expert but it doesn't seem worth it. it's so impossible to love like you've never been hurt once you've been through a bit, come on. ANYWAY. after debates on marriage with spanish guy of late and things i see around me relationships seem to be all the rage, why not rip it apart a little bit? ANSWER ME THAT. rather be alone than unhappy - whitney. dunno if that's meant to be uplifting, strikes me as ridiculous. OBVIOUSLY you'd rather be alone than unhappy, they're not usually synonymous?! whatever, i like being on my own too much, i'm obv. biased.
what good is tomorrow without a guarantee?
i was wrapped around her finger and i began to believe
that the consequences of your actions really are just a game
that your life is just a chain reaction taking you day by day
she says nothing's forever in this crazy world
ahhh <3 i love them.
wow this is a long blog. i might stop yus? okay. lol. niiight.