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helloo. now's probably the most inappropriate time to be blogging as i have so many other things to be doing, but you know how it is. i figure if i do this then i really will have exhausted my other things to distract me so i might actually get onto some revision.
it's the first of june today, which means several things. firstly, what the hell? where have the last five months gone? 2008 isn't turning out so well so far it has to be said. it's gone stupidly quickly and too many stupid things have happened, there have been some fun times and all but it's just rubbish (i still pretty much entirely blame a levels for this ^_^). secondly, i have my first exam in four days and don't know anything, i'm pretty much screwed as it stands right now, though i'm obviously going to solve that today and learn at least a quarter of the module. i figure i'll do religion as conservative force, religion as a force for social change & organised religions and religious institutions today - i realise you don't need to know this but i'm organising my thoughts.
i'm more inclined now than ever to get addicted to tetris but no, i'll fight it.
i could go now i suppose. i'm wearing my lovely man top and my flash gordon boxers today, they might inspire me, lol. if i learned anything this week it's that river island is wank but the guys section isn't bad, isn't bad at all.
i have a fabulous revision week playlist but it just seems to make me want to dance, it's better for like room tidying or something. hmmmm, i might rethink it. i keep listening to onerepublic, they're actually pretty good ^_^.
yeah i should really get into some work now. i'll blog later maybe.. sooon!

HIIIIII. i'm in a really good mood today so i thought i'd blog and let you all know, i spose there are some events to tell also as well as my three weird dreams ^_^.
the photo's stolen from amo's myspace, isn't it wonderful?!
so today is the rubbishist rainiest day i can remember and i'm wholly unimpressed but i started revising and i seem to know some english so i'm not losing all hope yet. sociology's dying but who cares really, NOT I. my parents and my brother went off to tamurf today and got his prom suit, it's so odd cause he looks about.. well, older than he is. WEIRD. but yay ^_^.
ahhhh a town called malice by mcfly came on, it now reminds me of driving to tesco in lindz's car on the last day with windows down, yaaaay. that's something that's happened since i last blogged, the last day! so i'm kind of officially free tho i haven't done any exams yet.. but still, yay. it was a good day actually, started with french which is always good but was particularly edged with joy as mrs harris seemed impressed with the france cake we made, she said she'd take it to london to show her kids :D (she was going already.. it wasn't special enough to warrant an individual trip :P). theeeen general running amockery with balloons, raiding the library and annoying seemingly every teacher, stupid work in stupid sociology but cake with craig who wasn't as beastish as usual - it's basically only when she's teaching or speaking spanish that i hate her. then to the paaark.. shirt signing which is always fun, yaay it's all good. the next day was that coffee morning shebang which was also kinda fun, saw mrs harris again yaay tho it shall not be the last! we stole some books from the library too, yay. i only need one more now.. dunno what tho and maybe i'll be forced to take more. which is fine. yay.
lindz's wasn't great for me but seemed to be fun from all the photos appearing on facebook, yaay ^_^. tho george was sick in various places it seems.. but maybe the rest was good :P.
so my dreams. well yesterday i was talking about turkish related things which is the only possible link to the dreams, which were baaaasically all connected together kinda.. it started with me and .. some people meeting some french (or french-speaking) people and the kissing both cheeks thing seemed to freak someone out, then they turned out to be oz's parents randomly, then they sorta disappeared and we were back in like my old christchurch lane house with fritha and some randoms in another room, me and my dad drinking tea upstairs and i think oz and alan sugar downstairs.. where alan sugar made michael portillo get naked to humiliate him for being sleazy and he laughed for like 10 minutes, and me and dad were watching a turkish football match (there's the link..) and they started KILLING EACH OTHER. there were sorta playing normally and then they all turned, and there was a huge L shaped wall they were playing around that was able to move in sections, and they started crushing people between the parts. an indian referee and a chinese guy died early on, before like half of the rest. it was horrific! so yeah, that was that. then in a separate dream there was a buskers protest over the noise pollution tax, so they were making lots of noise in b'ham city centre by way of a come together all together yay type song. i was amused.
so bower tomorrow. i dunno if i'll go, i assume i will though as i always do and yeah, i have a bottle of martini from lindz's to start. maybe finish. who knows. i don't really feel like getting drunk though, maybe i won't.. then i'd be sober 'til after exams, ooh. ah well we shall see, we shall see. ah i'm in such a good mood ^_^. i should really be revising though, i might go do that now.. my attention span is so short though, at least for work. i could spend hours (and have done) on here or facebook or 43things or whatever yet as soon as i pick up a textbook i can concentrate for like 15 minutes tops. maaahhhh, ah well. i'm not overly bothered. maybe i'll go to the library on tuesday. i might be going prom dress shopping with my mother on thursday which i'm actually not dreading as i'm determined not to fall out with her this time. our fighting is directly proportional to our shopping time. but no, we're getting on so i'll stay calm :P.
i'm listening to squidge's mixtape, it's properly aaaace ^_^. me and elle got our birthday presents off her and they were just glorious :D; i left the crayola flask of tea at lindz's :( but it did stay warm for like hours so yay for that! elle now has a hipflask lol, could come in handy tho' if i had one i'd almost certainly turn into an alcoholic.
so yeah, maybe i'll go revise tho' i don't feel all blogged out.. hmm. there's time later i suppose ^_^. laters!

touch and taste fades with space
i'll never be who you dream
MAH, so this fun time of my life deserved a blog i thought. i have my last day of school ever tomorrow, EVER. ever. i'm quite excited but maybe it'll be a bit sadder tomorrow, specially last lesson with mrs harris :'( I MAY CRY. (speaking of, raef got fired from the apprentice and with him fell my dreams). we shall see. fun sorts of pranks are planned, like beware of the dog and egg timers in the library and furniture moving, silent disco and balloons - *cough*frithastolemyidea*cough*. but FUN. i'm wearing my old uniform, it feels so odd we once wore the same everyday, memories! i kinda miss y11 but i spose y13 is more fun :D.
so today i tried and failed to get to english lesson 1 and then we made cake at elle's - the most amazing cake i or anyone else has seen or ever will see since the dawn of time to the very end, we rock. it's for mrs harris, i hope she likes it which she will cause it's a sexy sexy cake, but yeah.
i spose that's it. just marking the occasion.
YAY Y13.

alright guys. i feel that if i blog now and it's out of the way then i'll be free to REVISE and revise LOTS, though it doesn't get rid of the facebook problem.. but it might help. i'm drinking coffee too so hopefully if i like.. remember what it was like to be motivated on monday/tuesday and channel it then it'll be okay yusss.
so last night was WICKED (i totally love that word, i might have to start using it more). i now officially love uttoxeter and its people, tho' turning up only knowing like 2 people was scary as there were so many transvestites and generally wonderfully hideous costumes. princess leia a particularly terrifying one (it was a guy). but it was ace, good to see greenie again (my all time favourite drunk person) and james, he liked me more than he did in france i think which is lucky :P. hope he was alright this morning, he was hilarious for a while and then like actually half-dead by the time we left. i wonder embarassed he's gonna be that so many people saw him naked at least twice within like two hours. i stole his cape too, hope he doesn't mind..
but yeah, it was ace :P. we must go back and rave in the toxx, it's far too fun :D.
we break up this week, how weeeird. i mean i'm not the biggest fan of school and generally struggle to turn up quite a lot.. and i would quite like to leave and go to uni and do other fun things, but still! school. it's like.. what we do, since we were four?! ah it's odd, no two ways about it ^_^. i'm kinda generally accepting it though, i'm not like freaking out about it or anything so that's cool. we need to sort out some last day antics though, and get some alcohol so we can fulfil the get-drunk-in-school goal. as we'll NEVER GET ANOTHER CHANCE. ahhh. but yeah it's fine. wednesday hopefully making a france cake for mrs harris - HOW i love her ^_^.
so today. i need to do something, i was up a tad earlier than normal for a sunday but that seems to have meant that i've just wasted more time 'til now. ah well. i can work this afternoon, yus. i had such an awful dream about craig last night, like disgusting but hard to explain. GROSS. although in another part of the dream i was reading pride and prejudice and it seemed a good idea to actually read it again in reality, so i will do.
anyway yeah i've decided to be motivated. i can do this. laters!

that song's on repeat ahhh it's really good like night-time music i reckon, i'm calm. i feel worldly wise and settled. a good slow piano-y song should always do that.
so i just got back from elle's where we played the apprentice drinking game with pimms - JOY. it was truly a joy, though the episode wasn't explosive enough so we didn't get to take advantage of 'everytime they have an argument' and 'you have to take some accountability for this' and such.. but still, raef in a bear costume, come on. and pimm's, it truly is summer ^_^. today was nice, i walked home at half ten at night without a jacket or whatever, good times are here. i basically didn't go to school for absolutely no reason though, i slept later than i shoulda and didn't do basically any work. it feels like we're on holiday, like i've done exams or whatever, like we're all just freeeeeeee. damn, back to reality i say.
so you're gone and i'm haunted
and i bet you are just fine
did i make it take easy to walk right in and out of my life?
things atm are reminding me of the kind of house i want - i realise that's completely out of the blue and random but you know, houses are important things. i actually want a LIBRARY. well just a book room, it doesn't have to have millions but beanbags and nice floor space and lots of old books, i just want that. i find them comforting. i'm assuming i'd have lots of time to read them and just hang around in my book-room cause i won't have these social networking sites hanging over me as an adult. i really hope i don't lol, tho i obviously will, but you know. i don't associate adults with having them so i'll plan to delete them before i'm like.. 27.
i could live in a lighthouse, i'd like that if i got past how scary they might be at night. they've gotta be near rough seas as well which isn't great, but i guess you'd be inside or whatever. i could have books all up the spiral staircase. i want a pantry too, we had one in my old house like when i was little - i LOVED that house, there was a window seat in the kitchen and everything. kitchens are important rooms i've decided. when i have waves of calm or stress i go and sit in mine and just.. whatever, and my kitchen isn't even that nice in this house. they're coooooool.
anyway enough rambling about houses :P.
truth and beauty are wonderful words
but shrapnel is shrapnel
and at the end of the day
i am alone
with the things
i have done.
i don't really have much else to say. i might go and re-do my myspace as i deleted everything off it in my stress fit, i needed to 'clear' something so you know. though i'll probably just ramble about houses if i do. i don't have anything profound to say really so i dunno how to phrase anything on there.
ah outside is such a nice level of coldness, i quite enjoyed walking home. though a man outside a pub did whistle at me and they call something over, wanker. i really don't get guys like that, why would you do it? no woman ever responds, it just makes us feel ruuuuubbish and what, do they feel great about themselves? WHAT IS THE POINT. ahem.
so i've decided i'm going to school tomorrow for sure. it's mainly english lessons i hate atm, cause i've missed so many it's just a chore to pretend i'm gonna go to the others. i go to like 50% of them a week, and i only do that in the vain hope he won't call my parents. POINTLESS. eugh whatever. french fun lesson 1 with mrs harris, yay <3.
anyways i'll sh now. laters people.